My little Peach,
This week you measure the size of a peach. It's incredible since it seems that you were just the size of a poppyseed not that long ago. You are 12 weeks and 5 days old now. It seems you are pretty comfortable inside mommy. I have only had minor cramping and no bleeding. The bleeding would have freaked me out for sure in the early weeks.
We got to see you last Friday. We were not expecting to see you for several more weeks but our wonderful midwife thought it would be best to check you out on the screen and see your heartbeat and hear it as well. Daddy wasn't even going to go to the appointment but it was the first time we were to hear you, so he did. Honestly, I doubt he will miss any of them after the last one. They had the screen towards Michelle and dad so I couldn't see you, just dad's face. I can't explain it, but he totally fell in love with you that day. You had your hands by your head and covered it like saying, "Already with the pictures, geez!" We saw you move and stretch and dance around (clearly you have better moves than either of us...you must take after some long lost cuban relative). Your heartbeat was 150 which was nice and good. We are already so proud of how much you have grown...moving right along.
I am doing the best I can to be without stress over the next few months. It has been hard with some drama with your big doggie sister Sterling needing some extra TLC and work stresses me out from time to time. Each night though, I make sure that we have some you and me time before I go to sleep. We listen to music and I just relax. I hope this gets you in a good nighttime routine too!
We announced that you are coming to the world this weekend. Everyone is so thrilled. You are so very loved by so many people, you have no idea. Lots of people are saying what a lucky baby you are (you may read this one day and roll your eyes, I get it) but honestly, daddy and me are the lucky ones. We are beyond honored that you chose us to be your parents. We will do the best we can. We have already started planning for your future but take it each day at a time. What I can promise you is that we will do our very best to make sure that we nurture YOU, and not what we want you to be. My only wishes for you is that you learn to be compassionate, give of yourself, love with all you have, and listen to your heart, not your head. Everything else will follow. I can't tell you that disappointment and suffering will not exist, but it shapes who you are and will serve you in life. I'd like you to have a fun life filled with laughter and surround yourself with those who love you as much as you love them. You have a wonderful support team around you to help you achieve whatever you want to achieve. Material things come and go, it's what's inside that counts.
I have a binder full of letters that I started writing you since 2004! Can you believe it?
Know you have been wanted and wished for, for so very long. You are the best thing that has ever happened to your father and me. You have cracked open a part of our hearts we didn't know was closed.
All My Love,
Mommy
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